from mediocre to marathon worthy.

I didn't quite start my marathon running on April 15, 2011.  I started it the next day.  I tried to run outside but the wind was so fierce, it was blowing me all over the place.  So I came back home and ran on my treadmill.  I managed to run 6.5 miles and I was ill. I had to remind myself that this was a process and something for me to work toward.  My thoughts were centered mainly around my joining an internet website.  I went on this site because it is made for professionals and I don't want to date someone that makes less than I do.  It makes me feel shallow but after what I went through with Cliff, I know that when a woman makes more than her husband there is some resentment there.  I don't care how "cool" the man says he is with it.  So far I have had 50 something year old men sending me emails.  One guy sent me interview questions and then informed me how picky he was.  What a tool!  I had a dr email me and he was a year younger than me but I think he is a player.  I am amazed that the one thing in life that I have always dreamed of has alluded me.  I want "the one".  I want it all, I want someone who adores me but can protect me.  I want someone good looking and smart.  I want someone who is vibrant and sweet.  Tall order, I know but I don't want to settle anymore.  I certainly don't want to date someone who I will have to wheel them around in their wheelchair.  I want to travel and experience life to the fullest.  I would like to settle down with someone famous, but not too famous.  Someone who makes a great living but still down to earth. These were my thoughts as I ran.  Oh and I tried to run on April 17 but all I managed was 3 miles.  I have learned that I need to run every other day. 

from mediocre to marathon worthy.

April 15, 2011

 I decided to start an experiment.  All my life I have been okay at a lot of things but never extraordinare at one thing.  I am an okay body pump teacher, an okay marketing rep, an okay daughter; an okay mother.  I have never been awesome at one particular thing.  Most of the time I fly by the seat of my pants and wing it.  Same goes for running.  I am obsessive about my weight so I work out to keep the extra poundage off.  I can run about 4 to 5 miles a day.  I don't run more than 4 days a week.  I struggle with it because I get bored.  I never get that elusive runner's high.  So I have decided in my quest for self improvement that I am going to excel at running.  I am going to run 4 days a week and build myself up to 8 miles for 3 days a week.  At the end of the week; that will be my long run day.  I will run 15 miles that day.  During this time, I will record my thoughts and try to work on my issues.  Self esteem, and any other issue that arises.  You will know it all because I will bare it all.  All my thoughts and all of my fears.  Hopefully, I can work on my "stuff" while becoming a great runner.  I do want it noted that this is the first time that I have ever considered doing something like this without considering "losing weight".  It is not about weight it is about something greater than that.  A couple of rules I want to establish; I will run on a treadmill only if the weather is bad.  Most of my running will take place on a track where I can clock my mileage accurately.  I am going to get a runner's high.  That is my goal.  I will record every thought and every ache and pain.  Here it is for all to see. 

Today is the first day of my experiment.  Today's forecast: cloudy with a chance of showers.  I will run my 8 miles and I will share my experience.